Just Better

China

2008-08-01T02:01:00.005-06:00

I don't remember exactly how the order of my days in China went or what exactly happened on them, but I'm going to recall this past month as well as I can.

WuJiaoChang- After I got off the plane, they took me to eat pizza at this underground subway-esque thing at the intersection of 5 roads. Its humungously big and people everywhere in the moderately air conditioned underground. Lu Ai Yi left after dinner to do something and Li Shen led me around the area and checked out some malls including one that was like 12 stories with an ice skating rink in it. She asked me if I wanted to ice skate but she said she didn't know how so we refrained from doing that. Later, we checked out the outside where there was huge round things that the railroad went through up suspended in the air that lighted up and was different colors from each side. There was a bunch of kids putting on a rollerblading show and a bunch of old people singing and dancing around. Afterwards, we took the bus and went back to the house.

ShaoXing Trip- We left early in the morning at like 6 AM and got on the bus. It was me, Lu Ai Yi, her little sister, Li Shen, and Gao Yi. Chinese people really like to eat food. They brought so much food with them that it was ridiculous, asking me to eat some every step of the way. We went to some Guo Dai [ancient place] to look at this Poet's house who was like born in the 1880s. I took a lot of pictures and there was this street of souvenirs. I totally bought a fan and did the asian fan thing to cool myself off considering it was like.... fucking ridiculously hot outside. Later, we went to a pearl place and I bought a pearl necklace for 60 RMB for my mom [bargained from 75 RMB]. The hotel we stayed at was nice. Me, Li Shen, and Gao Yi shared a room and Lu Ai Yi and her younger sister shared a room. We played 80 Fen until like 11 and I tried to learn that uber confusing game in vain. I fell asleep wearing my glasses while Gao Yi and Li Shen watched TV.

The next morning, I woke up at like 6 AM and someone had nicely taken off my glasses and folded them next to me. We ate breakfast at like 7:00 and went on the bus to the waterfall place. When we got there, we hiked a bit and then there was this huge mountain lake that we had to take a boat across. Then we took a cart and then hiked up to the 5 tiers [the waterfalls], the most beautiful being the bottom most. I got to see the 5th, 4th, and 3rd tier before heading back down because the path above didn't have any rails. It was just me, Lu Ai Yi's lil sis, and Gao Yi who hiked up because Li Shen had hurt her foot like... 3 months prior due to a basketball incident or something. So Li Shen's mom and Li Shen stayed at the 1st waterfall and took a shitload of piccies. Afterwards, me and Gao Yi walked around and took some piccies and then we got back to the boat area, ate some ice cream stuff, and got back on the boat. After getting on the boat, we went to some residential place and ate. Then, we went to some Mei Nue's house place that was actually rather pretty and walked around in the burning hot sun. Then we went home via subway for the first time and saw an intense fight break out.

NanJing Lu- Li Shen, Lu Ai Yi, and her lil sis and me went to Ren Min Guan Chang, then switched over to line 2 to go to Nanjing Lu. We got some makeup that Lu Ai Yi ordered, then ate at NanJing Lu. It was this huge buffet that was uber cool. I tried out... rice wine, red wine, beer, everything. Rice wine was the best and I downed it. I ate so much. Then we walked down stairs and checked out some expensive american-esque clothing. Too expensive though. Afterwards, we went to Shin Tien Di, the foreigner hangout. But it was still bright outside and the number of people were very few. After some monotonous browsing, nothing happened and we went back to Ren Min Guan Chang to check out the underground subways shops. I found out that my feet are considered enormous in china, at a whopping 39-40. The max size that have at most shoe store places for women is a 39. We browsed for a lil while, but when it was dark out, we went up and looked at the massive amount of lights and people. After walking for a decent amount of time, we went into a small neighborhood and Li Shen called a cab and we waited for like 10 minutes until he came and sent us back home.

1st time visiting Ye Ye and Wai Gong-

....

2008-06-15T19:21:00.007-06:00

Stupid enough... or smart enough.

"The days were slipping past,
Let the good things never last..."

"I hardly recognize the girl you are today,
and I hope its not too late..."

Red light.

Distractions, work. Temptations, disastisfaction.

Change.... vs. Lack of Change

"Bear the cross"

Idle days.

Anger --> Frustration --> Tears --> Wonder --> Fall

Undependable?

Classical music doesn't calm shit, dr. A.

Desperate, horrible.

Pent.

Miss 'em.

Perfect timing. Just enough to not mess with my nonsocial life.

Nightmare... Woke up panting.

Ranted without ranting.

Don't know what to say.

B? Dunno.

It's about to burst.

.....

I don't know anymore. Whatever. Blood or tears, the sands of time bury everything right?

Still hurts.

Gah

2008-04-10T23:43:00.001-06:00

GOD FUCKING DAMNIT. WHAT THE FUCK AM I TO YOU?! A FUCKING BACKUP? THE PLATFORM THAT CATCHES YOU IF YOU FALL?! I DONT WANT TO BE THE FUCKING SUPPORT COLUMN TO A BUILDING.

Oh my god :D

2008-01-12T15:08:00.000-06:00

I feel sooo mean for laughing at this but still... LMAO!!

Quizzy?

2008-01-01T16:40:00.000-06:00

In 2007 I:
[ ] stayed single
[ ] got kissed
[ ] kissed someone new
[ ] made out
[ ] made out in a car
[ ] kissed in the snow
[ ] kissed in the rain
[ ] fell in love
[ ] fell in love with a fool
[ ] had my heart broken
[x] broke someone else's heart
[ ] had a stalker
[x] lost a friend(Well.... acquaintance considering my definition of friend)
[ ] had a good relationship with someone
[ ] questioned my sexual orientation
[ ] came out of my closet
[ ] got pregnant (Yes, I actually did have a baby)
[ ] got married
[ ] had a divorce
[ ] kissed someone of the same sex (lmfao no thanks)
[x] met someone that I will never forget (Too many)
[ ] did something I regret ... (I don’t regret anything)
[ ] lost my true love (If it was true love, you wouldn’t have lost it)
[x] lost faith in love for awhile (Never had faith)
[ ] kissed under mistletoe
[ ] got a promotion
[ ] got a pay raise
[x] changed jobs
[x] lost my job(I blame it on parents)
[x] quit my job (See above)
[ ] dated a co-worker
[ ] dated my boss
[ ] dated my boss's son/ daughter
[x] got fired from my job (refer to []lost my job)
[ ] got straight A's (AHAHAH I laugh)
[ ]failed a class
[x] cut class (heh.... heheh)
[x] skipped school (Fun stuff)
[x]did something I was proud of(Many things)
[x] proved myself an idiot (2nd story floor window. The end.)
[ ] embarrassed myself in front of the whole gymnasium
[ ] fell in love with a teacher (Eww they’re all female and/or old)
[x] was involved in something that I will never forget (Haha, you have no idea)
[x] painted a picture (Art class)
[x] ran a mile (Used to run 5)
[x] listened to music I couldnt stand (Annoying crap)
[ ] double dipped
[x] skinny dipped (Hey, I have a pool in my backyard, what can I say?)
[x] went to a sleepover (rawr :D this year was sleepover year)
[ ] went to camp
[x] threw a surprise party (Err, kinda?)
[ ] laughed till I cried
[ ] laughed till I peed my pants
[ ] flirted shamelessly (-.-)
[ ] visited a foreign country
[x] visited a foreign state (Cali :])
[x] cooked a disastrous meal (ALL OF THEM)
[x] lost something important to me (Haha.....)
[ ] got a gift I love
[x] realized something new about myself (It isn’t growing up if you don’t learn about yourself)
[ ] tried to gain weight
[ ] dyed my hair
[x] came close to losing my life... (Haha.. lets just say road rage follows)
[ ] someone close to me died (I hope it’ll never happen but that’s just whimsical)
[ ] went to a wild party (Sheltered)
[x] ran from/hide from the cops (hahaha......)
[ ] read a great book
[x] saw a great movie (Many pretty good ones I guess...)
[ ] saw a movie so scary that it made me scared
[x]saw a favorite band live (MUSE ZOMG)
[x] did something that I want to tell everyone (:D)
[x] experienced something new (Haha, definitely many new things)
[x] made new friends (:])
[x] found out who my real friends are (<3)
[x] lied to my parents (Who doesn’t?)
[x] snuck out (’nuff said)
[ ] got in trouble with police
[ ] kissed in a pool
[ ] kissed under the stars
[ ] did an illegal drug
[x] went to a party (Boring ass shit)
[x] had the time of my life (:D)
[x] danced (Kinda?)
[ ] fell out of love
[x] had a crush on someone (Haha, more like a passing whimsical fancy)
[x] swam in a pool
[ ] made a snowman
[ ] went skiing
[ ] went sledding
[ ] slept in past 2pm
[ ] held someones hand that I care about
[x] told someone I like them as more than a friend
[x] gone on vacation
[x] gone on vacation with a friend (Oklahoma bitches :D)
[x] driven a car (heck yeahh)
[ ] played strip poker
[ ] danced in the rain
[x] seen someone get in a car accident (scary stuff)
[ ] got in a fist fight
[x] laughed until I couldn't breathe
[x] had an amazing year (:])
[x] missed someone (Definitely a lot)
[ ] got hit by a car
[ ]see someone get hit by a car
[ ] sent someone to the hospital
[x] enjoyed this year overall.... (Very well :])

2007-11-25T19:46:00.000-06:00

The past few months is what I'd imagine life to be like. Mistakes, lessons, goals, failures all compacted down. There have been times I've loved myself and times where I completely hated myself like the scum of the earth.

I want to do so much. I can see how one day can change the world or completely disappear from memory.

I've been so satisfied with so many things and my views on people are constantly changing back and forth. Optimist to pessimist to humanist. It's like a rollercoaster of morality, haha.

But I must say when it comes down to it, I don't really regret this year. I've screwed up so much and so many things have gone right. But the thing is that enough things have gone right that I feel satisfied. And I must say, isn't that what life's kind of about? To be able to say that it was all worth it in the end.

It's good enough, the past year has been dramatic enough, anticlimactic enough, slow enough, confusing enough, amazing enough, boring enough, and most definitely, painful enough.

"I've learned how to suffer."- Definitely true, haha. I've learned to suck it up and deal with it. I've learned how to be take a beating so bad that it feels like the end of the world. But I've also learnt that human being are like cockroaches. You flush us down the toilet and we'll keep climbing up for no reason at all. The bottom isn't the bottom, there's always worse.

I won't even say how happy I've been though. But all in all, there have been some good times. If the beatings are worth it just to experience happiness, then I must say, that's a life worth living.

Presents

2007-09-08T18:21:00.000-06:00

So here I am sitting at Alina's house, waiting for her to finish teaching her piano lesson when I started looking around at random blogs of friends I haven't visited in a while. Of course, I felt like I had to write a little landmark of my own.

I'm turning 17 tomorrow. Yes, 17. I'm so young for my grade yet its so old compared to what I feel like. I mean... 17 years. I remember being fascinated by the fact I turned TEN, so many years ago. But now... 17. I mean, after that its one year of painstakingly annoying college-dedicated activities and off to a college I don't really care about too much. I mean, it'll be fun getting out of this general area, but like fuck, I will miss plano and its antics. Afterall, its inevitable after I've lived here for so many years... since I was 5.

Beyond that, I noticed the general developement in my celebrations of birthday parties. 2 years ago, when I had a large b-day party for my 15th birthday, it was fun but I felt like I was obligated to invite some people. After a year into high school, I had definitely drifted from my former friends. And me, being my anti-social self, had made no effort in getting to know anyone else. God knows why. However, we were still close enough for me to invite some people and have a generally decent celebration.

A year after that, my sweet 16... I really hated the idea of hosting a party. The past year was no different in my anti-social tendencies towards people. However, another year was past and more drifting had occurred. When I really thought about it, there was NOONE for me to actually call a close friend at that point. Of course, I could always connect to people if I took time to sit down and talk to good friends. But, I mean, noone knew my daily life. Harsher yet, noone cared. But it was my fault. I had no intention to complain. I celebrated most of it in silence, but then desperately asked Melissa to spend the last few hours with me, chilling at Collin Creek. What can I say? When only two people say Happy Birthday to you and one lives in a different city, it's pretty painful.

This year... I seem to have evened out a bit more. Friends come and go, I realise that. But thankfully, more have come into my life this year. I actually gained some friends. Amazing, no? But definitely some close ones this year. But am I hosting a birthday party? No. I'm still not. Not because I have noone to invite this year. Rather, whats the difference between hosting a party and hanging out with some close people? I mean, a party is for those who intend to unite a large group of people. I don't enjoy that kind of thing too much. Rather, I enjoy time with a couple of friends just anywhere, you know? We all spend money on food, all that stuff. I don't care much for presents or any of that. I just want to be content for a day.

But of course, school has to make everything due the coming week. So i'll spend my birthday panicking over that. A bit disappointing, but I'm still a bit satisfied. Maybe its cause I feel like I could have had a birthday party and truly enjoyed myself. Or rather because I feel like i've become a little more important to some people over the past year. Realizing one's importance is a very important thing. Or rather, glorifying it is important. Everyone wants to be the main character in the story. Even if I'm just a side character, at least I'm not just a face in the crowd anymore. And that's a present to my ego as it is :]

Alina makes my day :D

2007-08-13T22:50:00.000-06:00

XdWlf :	you know what irritates me?
aachooooo:	hm?
XdWlf :	whenever i go looking for torrrents on torrentspy.com it always looks like i'm looking at porn cause of all the ads and popups featuring naked women
XdWlf :	i didnt really realize it
XdWlf :	until someone was sitting behind me
XdWlf :	and then i started looking for a torrent
XdWlf :	and they were kinda like "O.O"
XdWlf :	and i was kinda like "what?"
XdWlf :	"oh.... NO!! NOT WHAT IT LOOKS LIKE!"
XdWlf :	"ILLEGAL MUSIC! NOT PORNOGRAPHY!"
aachooooo:	LOLLL
aachooooo:	YEAH
XdWlf :	haha
aachooooo:	omg my dad thought i was lookign at porn
XdWlf :	o.O
XdWlf :	=.=
aachooooo:	seiruosly... cause my old computer
aachooooo:	he was on it
aachooooo:	and he started using the internet
aachooooo:	and ads kept popping up
XdWlf :	lmao!
aachooooo:	and then later at dinner one time.. he's like... what do you do on the internet?
aachooooo:	are you watching weird things?
XdWlf :	lmfao!!!
aachooooo:	an di'm like.. HAHAHAHAHA WTF??!!?!
XdWlf :	thats pretty funny
XdWlf :
aachooooo:	i wa sjust like.. wowww
aachooooo:	you've got to be kiddin gme....
XdWlf :	dude, i remember one time i was on jessica's computer
XdWlf :	and then randomly, adware ad popped up
aachooooo:	loll
XdWlf :	and it was like "seize this chance to download child pornography!"
XdWlf :	i was like "uh.... jessica?"
aachooooo:	it's so annoying
XdWlf :	haha
XdWlf :	but yea
XdWlf :	thats my little rant
XdWlf :	stupid porn-like websites that also house appealing illegal music/movie downloads
aachooooo:	hahahaha yeah
XdWlf :	you know what was really awkward
XdWlf :	?
XdWlf :	one day out of the blue, my mom asks me "you've watched porn, haven't u?"
XdWlf :	i'm just kinda like "wtf"
aachooooo:	LOL!!!
aachooooo:	OMG
aachooooo:	ew.
XdWlf :	seriously
aachooooo:	yeah laura, i totally have =D
XdWlf :	only of pianists
XdWlf :	we know your fetish
aachooooo:	of course
aachooooo:	we have oh so strong fingers =D
aachooooo:	HAHHAHAHA
XdWlf :	LMAO!!
aachooooo:	i shall stop
XdWlf :	HAHA!!!

Dreading Monday

2007-07-04T15:10:00.001-06:00

The end of my days with my dad draws closer... He's leaving on Monday and we won't ever live together again. Of course I'll still see him occasionally.... maybe a few days a month at most, but it's not the same. So after living with him for almost 17 years... this is it. Less than a week to cherish what will fade away for the rest of my life.

Big Bend Trip

2007-06-23T02:34:00.001-06:00

Realizations during the trip:

My mom completely lacks common sense.
My dad reads my aim conversations.
I should spend more time with my lil bro cause he completely looks up to me.
Sleeping on rocks isn't as hard as it would seem.
Mosquitos there don't bite.
Bugs enjoy flying into the orifices of my face.
White-tailed deer are stupid.
Cactus hurt like a @%$#%#.
People like to stand and laugh when you're in pain.
I should stop cussing.
Old guys like to talk about the weather.
Instruction manuals should be carefully read.
Always prepare for a storm.
Most of the time, nothing ever lives up to your expectations.
Four-wheel drive is worth it.
Watch out for foxes crossing mountain roads.
Roadrunners are stupid.
I can sleep anytime and anywhere despite rain, wind, and/or heat.
It's easy to miss the stars when you finally catch a glimpse of how they're supposed to look.
I suck at taking pictures.

How fun...

2007-06-17T02:47:00.001-06:00

So... here's whats down. Alina's life is fucked up [Why'd you have to make things so complicated? Lalalala...]... Thuc-Van and Eric is screwed over now... and I'm supposed to be the only person with her life completely right... save the fact I just got yelled at for over 2 hours straight, just cause I wanted to help people out.

Meaning my car taken up, my cellphone god knows where... and everything seems dandy cause my parents didn't like the fact I was spending too much time doing "useless crap that doesn't even matter". So yes. I get screwed over in life for helping out a couple of friends. Thank you god. I can feel the love now.

Yea. Okay. Whatever. I'm beyond caring. Seriously. Tired. Fuck it all.

Snippits of my life...

2007-06-10T09:05:00.000-06:00

"I'm actually part cannibal."

"Oh my god Laura!! Your arm's swollen! You've got a blood clot! YOU NEED TO GET THAT CHECKED!!! If you don't you might die!!"
"Uh... no.. my other arm's the same thing..."
"Oh.. I'm just not used to seeing people with muscles..."

"Awkward Eric!!!"

"Lorna."
"Who?"
"Lorna."
"Who??"
"The Bitch."
"Oh her."

"Lets make smores!!"

39 Missed Calls...

One week there, one week back, and 3 weeks gone D:

"OH MY GOD THEY'RE CLIMBING ON THE CAR!!!"

BC Calc Book

"Oh my god, my dad just came in and demanded to know why I was on the computer. I told him I was looking up information for Indiana University... What the crap..."
"WHAT THE FUCK?! My mom just started reading a book behind me!! What's going on?!"

"Dude, I saw the whole thing. Your face just lighted up and it happened..."

"Yeah... I fell off the roof of my friend's two-story house and hit the window sill on the way down..."

"Lol!!"
"Li!!"

"Drip Drip Drip..."

"Attack Martin!!"

"I think its mold..."
"Me too..."
"Oh well.." *mix mix*
"At least it tastes good..."

"EAT THE BUBBLES!!!"

"Jessica, we ASPIRE to be you."

"So... you were going 53 in a 41 mph zone..."

"Shanghai-nese people look hispanic."

"You're making girls do your job!!"

"Dude... I think she's lesbian and she's totally stealing away our girlfriends..."

I'll put down more when I remember it.

Change

2007-06-06T03:42:00.001-06:00

I need more willpower to do the things that are important to me...

Insults and Politics

2007-05-19T22:04:00.000-06:00

XdWlf: i saw that before

SMAL tHe mouSE: well

SMAL tHe mouSE: you saw it again

XdWlf: screw u

XdWlf: bish

XdWlf: i dont need to see things more than once

XdWlf: it wastes my time

XdWlf: cause i'm perfect

XdWlf: and none of my time should be wasted

SMAL tHe mouSE: WELL EXCUSE ME

XdWlf: there goes 5 seconds of my life i'll never get back

XdWlf: *sighs*

XdWlf: yeah EXCUSE YOU

SMAL tHe mouSE: OK

XdWlf: OK

SMAL tHe mouSE: FINE

XdWlf: FINE, BITCH

SMAL tHe mouSE: DUMBFUCK

XdWlf: FAG FACE

SMAL tHe mouSE: CHICKEN DICK

XdWlf: STEROID BUTT

SMAL tHe mouSE: hey you noticed

XdWlf: yes

XdWlf: i think about it all day and night

SMAL tHe mouSE: im sure you did

XdWlf: i see it when i close my eyes

XdWlf: its so fucking sexy

SMAL tHe mouSE: my anus

XdWlf: uranus

SMAL tHe mouSE: i know

SMAL tHe mouSE: its special like that

SMAL tHe mouSE: people have visions of it at night

XdWlf: omg

XdWlf: ew

XdWlf: no thank you

SMAL tHe mouSE: you said it yourself...

XdWlf: so?

XdWlf: your point?

XdWlf: thats right

XdWlf: i thought so

SMAL tHe mouSE: flip flopper

XdWlf: YOU HAVE NONE

XdWlf: ;o

SMAL tHe mouSE: YOURE LIKE KERRY

XdWlf: you didn't just call me that

XdWlf: BITCH

SMAL tHe mouSE: ASS WIPE

XdWlf: JACKED FACE!

SMAL tHe mouSE: TURTLE ANUS

XdWlf: MOTHER FUCKED CROTCH!

SMAL tHe mouSE: SCROTUM

XdWlf: BITCH-SLAPPED NIPPLE-MAN!

SMAL tHe mouSE: DATE RAPED ASS-HOLE

XdWlf: i think you're a lame-o brain

SMAL tHe mouSE: yea i am

XdWlf: nooo

XdWlf: NO AGREEING

XdWlf: D:

SMAL tHe mouSE: haha appeasment

SMAL tHe mouSE: youre like hitler

XdWlf: czechoslovakia, bitch

SMAL tHe mouSE: czechoslovakia got invaded and torn apart

XdWlf: yeah, so give me more land so i can kill everyone on them

XdWlf: and cause to to drop a nuclear bomb on japan

SMAL tHe mouSE: hitler didnt have a nuclear bomb

XdWlf: cause you*

SMAL tHe mouSE: hurrey up and invade poland so germany and france can declare war on your ass

SMAL tHe mouSE: i mean britain and france*

XdWlf: no way bitch, we're gonna go to china, bitch

SMAL tHe mouSE: ok fine

XdWlf: infect everyone with your naziism this time

SMAL tHe mouSE: go work in your sweat shop

XdWlf: so we can have azn terrorists on your ass

XdWlf: dude, we're gonna have half the population become suicide bombers

SMAL tHe mouSE: right you and your pre industrialized world can kiss our ass

XdWlf: so we can nuke your non-aryan asses

XdWlf: at least you won't have your bare ass planted in front of the UN as you try to drag your dick out of iraq after you raped it

SMAL tHe mouSE: i never said i was the united states

XdWlf: fine, half your dick

XdWlf: -.-

SMAL tHe mouSE: im canada stupid

SMAL tHe mouSE: isnt it about time you suicided with your girlfriend and your dog?

XdWlf: don't you drag my girlfriend into this, jackhole

SMAL tHe mouSE: you killed her you heartless bitch!

SMAL tHe mouSE: what the FUCK did she ever do

XdWlf: we can have mad dead lezbo sex if we want and we don't need your shit-for-brained opinions interrupting our after-life love

XdWlf: so fuck off

SMAL tHe mouSE: stfu or well blow another versailles treaty up your ass

SMAL tHe mouSE: or well give half our country to the russians

SMAL tHe mouSE: see what happens then!

XdWlf: bitch, please. If you lived near the russians, they would've owned your sorry ass already

SMAL tHe mouSE: wateva'

XdWlf: you're so rapeable, you're like free ground, bitch

SMAL tHe mouSE: wed just have nuked those commies from turkey dumbfuck

XdWlf: those freaking commies would've spread their bio-diseases all over your freaking fugly face

SMAL tHe mouSE: what the hell are you talking about all the diseases they got right now is vodka addiction and the last remaining small pox sample in the world

XdWlf: and then you'd be so fucked over you'd be too dazed to know that you just got burnt by a couple of old men in fucking rags

XdWlf: bitch, that vodka would own your asses. If they spiked your drinks, you'd be so weak to that alcohol, you'd die by intoxication after a single fucking drop

XdWlf: just shows how fucking manly your canadian fuck brained ass is.

SMAL tHe mouSE: what are you talking about! you pussy you signed an agreement with russia so you wouldnt have gotten fucked over buy them

SMAL tHe mouSE: DONT MESS WITH US, WELL JAM A HOCKEY STICK UP YOUR ASS

XdWlf: bitch please, they were just as fucking scared of us and our awesome nazi-bible-charisma

XdWlf: and you couldn't fucking get near us with a hockey stick before your own ass gets mobbed and torn to smithereens

SMAL tHe mouSE: yea right thats why you got pwned at normandy

XdWlf: and strewn across your fucking cities

SMAL tHe mouSE: and firebombed yuor capital

XdWlf: did you fucking forgot how we kept on owning your idiot ass and how your so called 'frenchness' was stabbed as we overtook your entire fucking country, only leaving 'great' britain and your futurely iraq fucked ass to compensate?

XdWlf: yeah, what now, bitch?

SMAL tHe mouSE: we were to busy fucking over your little brother japan with the fucking a-bomb

SMAL tHe mouSE: we didnt consider you as important as them!

SMAL tHe mouSE: bitch

XdWlf: you didn't even know the fucking effects of the a-bomb, you jackass

XdWlf: and not to mention, you fucked over so many of your own fucking men to 'see the effects' of the bomb

SMAL tHe mouSE: WHAT??

SMAL tHe mouSE: WE SAVED OUR MEN

XdWlf: watching as they caught the fucking radiation and got cancer later

SMAL tHe mouSE: by not invading all of japan

XdWlf: you fucking ass

SMAL tHe mouSE: we just pwned all the japs

SMAL tHe mouSE: while we were catching the action from okinawa

XdWlf: how about those filipino-boys you decided to fuck over by testing your god-forsaken a-bomb?

SMAL tHe mouSE: whaat?

SMAL tHe mouSE: we didnt drop a bomb on the philippinos!

SMAL tHe mouSE: we jsut conquered them

SMAL tHe mouSE: till the fucktards just decided to rebel

XdWlf: bull crap, you tested a thousand in those freakin islands and then told them it was safe for inhabitation, you fucking ass

XdWlf: then they all fucking died after that

SMAL tHe mouSE: right so i guess awshwitz dosent count as testing your new shit and killimg millions

XdWlf: don't be a fucking moron you ass

SMAL tHe mouSE: so

SMAL tHe mouSE: you wana stop now?

XdWlf: you made the world afraid of the god damned a-bomb

XdWlf: sure

XdWlf: but that was fun

XdWlf:

SMAL tHe mouSE: yes

SMAL tHe mouSE: i wana save that

XdWlf: ditto

XdWlf: blog!!

Putting your past behind you.... Hakuna Matata

2007-05-13T10:33:00.000-06:00

I love how as soon as you decide to forgive yourself for something you've killed yourself over a thousand times, others decide to force you to remember... force you to explain yourself for the sake of their knowing... Despite the fact that they can't help in any form and are just being nosy for the sake of being nosy... Some wounds are better left unsalted. -_-

Posts...

2007-05-04T06:04:00.000-06:00

Yeah... I haven't posted anything about my life for a while... But not because I wasn't reminded to.

I first started this blog due to this constant [almost irrational] fear of forgetting everything I didn't want to forget. The small and pleasant times I wished to capture forever [I sound like Tim O'Brien -.-]. But right now, it's too open. I feel like there are some people who look in on this and shouldn't be. I feel like this isn't just for me anymore and that in itself seems a dreadful feeling. There are some aspects of my life I'm still not ready to reveal to others, but I still want to write them down so I can preserve how I felt.

I don't know... Maybe I'll make my private little blog and just rant to myself about it. Just for me. Noone else.

TAKS

2007-04-18T20:42:00.000-06:00

Woot, TAKS week. I LOVE TAKS week. *sarcasm* All you non-Texas people who don't have to take this.... I envy you. Like no other. I swear, when I'm taking the freaking test, I can feel my IQ dropping... steadily... It saps me.

Junk Food Wednesday.

Contemplating on friends...

2007-04-12T17:28:00.000-06:00

My friends are very sweet [not like I'll say it in real life, but whatever]. Sometimes, without knowing it, they'll know how make my day with the little things they do.

To turn my mood in a split second, to know how to interest me with the things they do and to not only listen to me [I make everyone -even the wall- listen to my rants whether you like it or not] but to also have their own casual way of making me feel better instead of just pointlessly trying to emphasize with me[I appreciate it if you try to emphasize with me, but honestly, doesn't help. I think it's cause I hate the concept of being pitied. I kinda just talk to let out stress and others telling me how horrible my life is and how much they feel sorry for me doesn't help].

Of course, I don't show much emotion outside of frustration, anger, or vengeance [that's kinda an emotion I guess], but believe it or not, I do have those things you call emotion. I guess I'm like a guy that way. I hate 'showing weakness' as they say.

If something's uberly wrong with me, I don't like to show it to people [the really screwed up parts... not my daily complaints about my 2 hrs of sleep] and maybe that's way most parents hate me... cause I'm an arrogant little bitch :D

But anyways, to the far and few that I truly respect, you guys rock ["like boulders rock" Lmfao... yeah, I love you too]. To everybody else, uhh... I'll see you at school I guess.

Note: Thuc-Van, give me back my camera >.<

Sleep

2007-04-12T04:53:00.000-06:00

Note to Self: Get more of it. You have an ACT on SATURDAY you queer -.-

2007-04-11T16:20:00.000-06:00

Mom: You look like a monster.

Thanks.

Hate

2007-04-09T19:18:00.000-06:00

I've just come to a realization of how much I fucking hate so much stuff around me.

A Convo B'tween Me and Aik.... On a good day.

2007-04-08T20:43:00.000-06:00

XdWlf: hey aik, im bored

XdWlf: lets go somewhere at 12

XdWlf: midnight

SMAL tHe mouSE: -_-

XdWlf: ;p

XdWlf: did i already tell you my awesome way to reject someone who confesses to you?

SMAL tHe mouSE: confesses?

SMAL tHe mouSE: and no

XdWlf: you should say something along the lines of

XdWlf: "oh.... I thought you were gay [or lesbian]...

SMAL tHe mouSE: wait wat do u mean confess

XdWlf: "I love you"

SMAL tHe mouSE: aah

SMAL tHe mouSE: haha nice

SMAL tHe mouSE: did someone do this to you lately?

XdWlf: no... -.-

XdWlf: i just thought of it

XdWlf: that'd be cruel

XdWlf: i wouldn't be joking about it

SMAL tHe mouSE: YOU could say it

XdWlf: -.-

XdWlf: cruel

XdWlf: truly cruel

SMAL tHe mouSE: yea

XdWlf: but so awesome

SMAL tHe mouSE: yep

XdWlf: You're just appeasing me now...

XdWlf: :[

SMAL tHe mouSE: no i always do that

XdWlf: -.-

XdWlf: screw u

XdWlf: bish

SMAL tHe mouSE: bish!

XdWlf: bish!

XdWlf: bish you.

SMAL tHe mouSE: biotch

SMAL tHe mouSE: haha bish isnt even a work

SMAL tHe mouSE: word*

XdWlf: bish is MY word

XdWlf: D:

SMAL tHe mouSE: ok ok

XdWlf: STOP APPEASING ME

XdWlf: AHH!

SMAL tHe mouSE: fine

XdWlf: ...........

XdWlf: you're loving this aren't you?

SMAL tHe mouSE: yea :]

XdWlf: -.-

XdWlf: bish

SMAL tHe mouSE: lmao

XdWlf: i hope you do

XdWlf: then you wouldn't be able to sit

SMAL tHe mouSE: ow...

XdWlf: so i'd be rofl-ing at you

XdWlf: until i hit a nail

SMAL tHe mouSE: ow...

SMAL tHe mouSE: you seem more happy than usual

XdWlf: really?

XdWlf: o.o

SMAL tHe mouSE: mhm

XdWlf: mm

SMAL tHe mouSE: mm?

XdWlf: mm=ponderance

SMAL tHe mouSE: is that another of your words?

XdWlf: its not a word

XdWlf: its an expression

SMAL tHe mouSE: neither is bish

XdWlf: thats... by... sound...

XdWlf: yes it is!

SMAL tHe mouSE: yet u claimed it

XdWlf: BISH IS A WORD

XdWlf: :[

SMAL tHe mouSE: find bish for me in a dictionary

XdWlf: u isn't a word either

XdWlf: its a letter

SMAL tHe mouSE: Fine.

XdWlf: ....... Stop appeasing me you bish.

SMAL tHe mouSE: From now on, I will speak with perfect punctuation and grammer marks.

XdWlf: YAY

SMAL tHe mouSE: Hey.

SMAL tHe mouSE: You forgot the period.

XdWlf: YAY!

XdWlf: exclamation mark, queer

SMAL tHe mouSE: Why is the 'a' and 'y' capitalized?

SMAL tHe mouSE: That is incorrect.

XdWlf: In order to express further joy, the 'a' and the 'y' are capitalized for further emphasis.

XdWlf: Duh.

SMAL tHe mouSE: Indeed?

XdWlf: Indeed.

SMAL tHe mouSE: Very well.

XdWlf: Very well, then.

SMAL tHe mouSE: Good day to you then madame.

XdWlf: If you would, please refrain from continuously appeasing me for your own sadistic entertainment, you oaf.

SMAL tHe mouSE: Damn this is hard.

XdWlf: You forgot the comma after the word 'damn'.

SMAL tHe mouSE: I shall attempt to suppress my sadistic appraisals then.

SMAL tHe mouSE: I feel like Stewie.

SMAL tHe mouSE: From the popular entertainment broadcast "Family Guy."

XdWlf: Incompetant fool, you shall fail to suppress your sadism; Causing your emotions to lie in your subconscious and become released through Freudian slips and dreams.

XdWlf: I like 'Family Guy'.

XdWlf: :]

SMAL tHe mouSE: I object to your predictions on the grounds that I dream not of sadism, but of things of a more random nature.

SMAL tHe mouSE: As do I.

XdWlf: [Footnote: We're so fescking queer.]

SMAL tHe mouSE: Indeed.

SMAL tHe mouSE: Let us come to terms. 'Bish' is a word, as is 'u.'

XdWlf: As random is an ambiguous term, I cannot accept that statement. And I applaud you for putting forth these terms.

XdWlf: well, I think im gonna put this on my blog cause im a good mood

SMAL tHe mouSE: great

XdWlf: gratz aik, you get to be blogged

SMAL tHe mouSE: yay?

XdWlf: yes, yay

SMAL tHe mouSE: yay then

XdWlf: ... Fesck you, bish.

SMAL tHe mouSE: o great

SMAL tHe mouSE: Fesck

Good Friday

2007-04-06T23:24:00.000-06:00

Mmm, I had a fun time today, wasting gas and being azn-y cheap with Afshan [for the first time in 3 years]. Not too many details I wanna put on the net, but it was very interesting. Sad that others didn't come, but hoping we'll do it again.

Thursday's Good Friday Early Release

2007-04-06T07:08:00.000-06:00

Yesterday was pretty interesting.

Got there at like, 7:50 and studied a bit for Psych Six Weeks Exam [while eating a cookie] and then took it till 8:30-ish, then wandered around.

School Day---- ZOoom.

After school I stayed around and talked with Amy for like 30 minutes, then kinda wandered around for a while. Then Circuit City... then I went to BK to eat their Crispy Tacos [$1.40 w/ tax] and then I wandered to Haggard Library. Stayed there, read like 30 pages of a book that started out really interesting [Labryinth] but kinda died off. Afterwards I was like.... what to do now... So I looked around and found... Dante's Inferno! So I read half of that and that is one short epic poem/book thingy. But good too. Then I moved on to this weird book called "Things that never were" or something like that. It was interesting. Talked about myths and legends and other stuff like that.

Then I drove to Ines's house to do the English film project [which I may take a moment to mention that our presentation is going to fucking kick your ass :D]; staying till 6:36-ish before going to visit.. Dum Dum DUM! Karate. Well, Tang Soo Do. Whatever. [AIK GOT A BLACK EYE FROM A DOOR! :D] Saw that David dude. He was a wuss. Didn't see any power-hungering while I was there, but I'm just that awesome. Messed around for a while, then drove home. Melissa wanted to race me. Bleh.

Wow, talk about fragmented sentences. Completely stream of consciousness of a certain event. And that was my Thursday-ish. I think me and Afshan are gonna hang out later today. Not sure about that yet, but it's been 3 years since we've seen each other. And Facebook lets us get in touch again :D.

Delayed Spring Break Summary

2007-04-02T19:23:00.000-06:00

Yes, i know spring break was many a week ago, but I wanted to record it down somehow. After my awesome car-getting experiences, the following happened.

Wednesday: Went out with Melissa and Aik the entire day through. It was fucking fun and we got home at like 9 PM after staying out for the whole day :D

Thursday: KD :[

Friday: Went out with Alyssa and Ines considering the other two queers didn't want to come along... well, that was half the day. The other half was kinda boring.

Saturday: Substituted for TV at the Friday Night Lights thingy for NHS and stayed there the entire time [FREE HOTDOGS!]... but when I came out, I looked at my car and was like "WHY THE FUCK IS THERE A DENT IN MY CAR?!"...

Before I started freaking out, a dude came up to me and said that he saw a black explorer/expedition hit it as it was backing up and run for it without even looking at the car. So, i panicked and ran to the police and while he called up the sheriff dude, he decided to do chewing tobacco infront of my face. I was like W.T.F. Hokay, after that happened, the sheriff dude came and looked at my car.

Suddenly, i hear a couple people screaming "THATS HIM! THATS HIM!" and there it was, the black explorer speeding off. The police guys cornered him, caught him, and found it it was this stupid teenager dude who had 3 friends in the car with him. He was like "Oh, I didn't know." BULL SHIT. If you hit a fucking car at that fucking speed, you know you idiot. Okay, so my car went to the shop and that sucked ass.

Then later that night, i went to watch Alina perform [you're amazing, Alina] and then went to the reception thingy after that [in my jeans :D]. Then, I mooched a ride offa her and came home pretty late.

Sunday= SLEEP

Well, I think thats it mostly. One thing down. I still need to upload those goddamned videos tho.

Quote

2007-04-01T12:18:00.000-06:00

"And she was as generous as the morning sun."

Hand

2007-03-27T22:43:00.000-06:00

Lets see what I have written on my hand.

15 min. Video
Significance Essay
Benefit to Society Essay
Process Essay
Teacher Nominator Form(s)
Post Office
Psychology Make-up Test
Portfolio for that Make-Up Test
Car Repair
Driver's License
2 French Quizzes to Make up
Alina's Present
Art Project [This is gonna be an all-nighter...]

Oh my... And all need to be done in 2 days... Shit.

Emo-dom

2007-03-25T11:16:00.000-06:00

Wow... I've been complaining a hell-load. Talk about whiny, haha.

Speaking of emo-people..

SPUD Day

2007-03-23T19:52:00.000-06:00

Well, today was interesting.

SPUD day for one. Stupid events for French Club w/ Avery, Andrea, Megan, Kyle, and Ryan at the queer spud event.

It was kinda fun, but I got all wet and not on the slip and slide. I shoulda kept that apple though... We got so owned by the white guards on the tug-o-war thingy... I swear I went flying. But not our fault, Lubbers lied to us. "This event requires no physical activity."

Uh... relays and tug-o-wars and stuff like that seem pretty physical to me -.-

Well, I wanted to watch the poker tournament, but I had to leave :[

[sad]

Disowned

2007-03-23T07:21:00.000-06:00

Mm... I just got disowned by my parents. Great.

Mom's New Insult

2007-03-22T17:02:00.000-06:00

Wow. Mom found a new way to attempt to hurt me today. Its cursing me till I die and hoping I will suffer of guilt.

"I hope that when you lie on your deathbed and are dying, you'll remember that you have everything to apologize to me."

and then also the

"I don't care anymore. Stop talking. Shut up. We are different people.... *three minutes later* You're making me insane. I have my own life too. blah blah blah etc"

don't forget the

"Every single apology i've ever said to you has been a lie. I don't feel sorry to you in my heart and you're the one who's done everything wrong. But I don't care anymore. My heart has grown cold to you [yes... she actually said that... talk about novel-y]"

Not to mention the insults on my dad that she has to say everytime something happens, even if my dad has no part in it.

"You're just like your dad. I should have never married him. He doesn't help me out ever. I do everything around the house. I sacrifice everything for this family. I don't like it and I'm suffering right now."

Dude. I was talking about food. No need to be the uber drama queen. Jesus Christ. What an emo mom. I'm sorry. Maybe I should stop using that word considering the lack of emotion behind it.

Oh yeah. Jessica, you looked really pretty today with your pink sparkley tiara. And Ryan... Please don't wear earrings ever again. Especially if they're heart shaped.

Obligated

2007-03-22T04:33:00.000-06:00

So, here's a list of things that I really need to do on this blog.

Upload the pic/vids of Destin goddamnit
Talk about my effing exciting spring break [In both good and bad ways]
Talk about my new schedule.
Talk about future plans vs. resolutions.
Get pictures of my car :D

I keep telling myself I'm gonna do it... but I don't. Damn you procrastinatory gland :[

Yes, Another Mom-Centered Rant

2007-03-18T21:06:00.000-06:00

Why the hell do you think I should appreciate you and love you and respect you when all you do is throw tantrums everytime something doesn't go your way? Why would I treat you like an equal when everything is right when you constantly insult me and provoke me for your own sadistic satisfaction? Who the hell do you think you are? Why haven't you realized that I've stopped caring?

No matter how deeply you may feel 'love' underneath, I don't give a shit anymore. Do you know why? Because every phrase that escapes your lips centers around a threat. Threatening my security, threatening my emotions, threatening my stability, threatening my being, and ultimately, threatening my sanity.

There is no trust between the crossfire of threats that you have made this household. The rift that you yourself created is what has affected me and that rift is what's hurting you. Karma, plain and simple. Don't expect an apology from what originated from yourself.

You assume that you're the center of all good. You assume that you're what is supporting this family. Guess what? You're NOT.

My DAD is the one who earns the money and lets us spend it for our own happiness. He's the one that works every single day and then does everything for us. You merely make fake sacrifices, unnecessary and self-inflicted sacrifices so you can have leverage against us.

In every single tiny conflict that arises, you remind us of how much you sacrificed for us. How much you suffered for our happiness. You, who stays at home and does nothing. You, the one who is required to do nothing.

I've had to bear so many of your insults. Insults that normally would fall on deaf ears if it were not from a mother. But that purely biological status itself makes it mean something. It means that what I am, where i came from, is shunning me. That there is no sanctuary in this world. What should represent kind warmth is the source of my stress.

The person who should be encouraging me, supporting me, is in fact, insulting me from dawn to dusk. You shun me then cling onto me. I should give you enough space, but be near you often enough to satisfy you. I'm not a toy for you to push and pull. I don't need to succumb to every single one of your whims. It's easy enough to survive without you. Your presence makes everything far more complicated. So if all you have to offer is agitation, leave me alone.

But as you hear my words, you assume that I'm merely being rude, that I'm the cause of everything, that I am careless with my words. These are my words chosen carefully and well thought over. This is not a reminant of a spontaneous thought. This is not something I will regret.

When you chase me merely to irritate me, disturb my peace to purposely cause me pain, what kind of mother do you expect me to see you as?

If we were but strangers, I would dislike you. However, as a mother, I don't dislike you anymore. In fact, to a mother, my negative emotions swell and that dislike turns into hate.

To someone who never understands nor tries to understand other people, who never sees her own faults, I have nothing to respect.

300

2007-03-17T22:19:00.000-06:00

Wait, wait, I have to say this.

I watched 300 yesterday and it was awesome. Little to no plot? Yes. Little to no character development? Yes. Historically inaccurate? Yes. And Extremely Flashy? Fuck yes. But god, it was so... pretty! Not to mention the terrifying [in a good way] number of mostly naked men running around and flexing their six packs. Wow, the graphics were incredible.

Awesome movie to watch and I won't even tell anything about the 'story' so you can enjoy its splendor for yourself.

Oh yeah. Raymond qualifies to be a Spartan [the movie context, not the historically accurate context of homosexuality-based Spartan society] :D

Rollercoaster

2007-03-17T21:39:00.000-06:00

You know how they say what goes up must come down? Well... I didn't feel like I went up that far, but this fall is going to leave a few scars.

I just discovered my mortality.

Braces

2007-03-15T21:18:00.000-06:00

Yay! I got my braces off today! My gums are swelling though. :[

I feel obligated to write down how my springbreak was and how this week was, but I just haven't been in a 'writing' mood lately. I guess i'll record a rough sketch later on when my memory is far more blurred.

Car

2007-03-06T15:42:00.000-06:00

FUCK YES!!! *cheers* *runs around in idiotic circles*

2007-03-05T19:29:00.000-06:00

Happy Birthday.

Mafia Car

2007-03-04T23:03:00.000-06:00

I swear... I just had a run-in with the Jordan-ian Mafia.... Wow... That was extremely weird. I'll never trust a private seller ever again.

The American Eskimo at the Flea Market was cute though. And the ferrets. They were awesome.

"Quote"

2007-03-04T12:01:00.001-06:00

"... maybe never again in this lifetime..."

I'll prove him wrong.

Bridge-y fun.

2007-03-02T22:46:00.000-06:00

Wow... after being preoccupied by the bridge project for the past week and its over, I'm feeling kinda empty. No, I'm not empty cause school's over for a week. Thats just dorky. I've just been preoccupying myself with this entire project and whatever stress i've felt, I've put off. But now, theres nothing to busy myself with and I have no idea what to do anymore. My life has hit rock bottom and I feel like I've given everything up. I'm beyond caring about anything right now.

I need serious help.

Scratch That.

2007-02-21T16:58:00.001-06:00

You know what? Scratch that. Thanks for ruining my week.

Apologies.

2007-02-18T20:35:00.000-06:00

If I've ever made you feel extremely uncomfortable, upset, irritated, or hurt because of me, I'm sorry. I'm more stupid than most blondes [no offense] and insensitive to boot, but I don't mean most of the things I say or do. I don't think over a lot of things and overly complicated some other things. I'm just rather awkward a lot of times.

But the thing is, I'm too stupid to actually figure out anything on my own. So if you're angry, please just talk to me. Unless things are upfront, I won't notice them. So if I've ever pissed you off, just tell me. If theres anything you don't like about me, just tell me. My attention to details is none at best. I lack common sense in every way and I'm sorry if I've angered any of you.

But please, just tell me.

Watch as an entire of line of people come up to me on Tuesday with lists upon lists of complaints.

Wow... Why Did This Week Seem So Freaking LONG?!

2007-02-18T12:24:00.000-06:00

Yep, extremely long and boring week... kinda.

Don't know why, but I was freakishly happy on Friday afternoon-ish as some of you might've seen. And yesterday. Well, there was Fete Francais so there was no reason to be happy or anything, but I think the awesome coffeeness boosted it all. Hurrah for Starbucks <3 <3.

But it was awesome to see Tiara again at the Fete... first time i've seen her in a year... and then the random soccer game really refreshed me. Fun :]

And I went to TV's house at like.. 9 PM to work on the freaking bridge. Stupid bridge *stab*. This is going to be long and tiring isn't it? Not one member done and already tired of seeing glue. :[

Well, Movie Mania today at Ines's house in an hour and a half for the English project. Yay kung-fu xD

Valentine's Day

2007-02-14T23:00:00.000-06:00

Chocolates, Flowers, all that crap. Keep it to yourself. Since when is the concept of 'Love' something to be exploited?

I don't need to hear about how much you love that person, especially in dazed-rant form. Personally, I'm not in love with them. You're happy. Good for you. I'm happy for you but I don't need to see PDA all over the halls (Why yes, the halls are now for hugging and kissing for extended periods of time. Didn't you know that? I love it especially when they're walking and stop suddenly in front of me. Then start elaborate displays of sexual contact... everything except for the actual intercourse. GET A ROOM!) .

And yes, I got a flower. Good for me. Get over it. Its from someone who's just a friend and so stop making such a big deal out of it. Even if it was from someone who liked me, I don't need other people to comment on it. Grow up.

On a cuter note, my dad bought a heart-shaped cake for my mom.

Painting

2007-02-13T23:57:00.000-06:00

Yay for infinite hours working on this god damned painting. Lets see, APUSH test tomorrow, Art project due thursday, and Fete on Saturday. Mm... I have to memorize prose for that. And I still havent uploaded the stuff. Mm..

I don't ever want to even see paint ever again. Lucky for me, I get to paint again tomorrow. Mm... tribal mask art on Valentines Day. No better way to feel loved than to paint in various shades of red-violet for several hours in a row.

Academic Conference Day

2007-02-12T18:02:00.001-06:00

Yes! More nagging! Just. What I. Need.

Stillness of the Afternoon

2007-02-11T14:55:00.000-06:00

Let us enjoy our days of calmed happiness but relish our days of suffering and activity.

Note to Self: Destin

2007-02-10T10:08:00.000-06:00

Remind me to upload the videos and pictures from Destin.

Amazing week.

2007-02-10T09:20:00.000-06:00

I swear, this has been the most amazing week ever considering the number of things out of schedule i've done over the past 5 days. The number of times i've been a complete idiot, the number of times other people have done something stupid, and just the overall experiences compressed down into 5 short days of panic and frenzy. The APUSH museum project got my adrenaline pumping like no other as I sprinted up and down the goddamned from the cafeteria to the library and back.

I know a few of you guys will call me crazy, but no matter how much I hated this freaking APUSH project, I loved it to death too. I think its just because this is something out of the ordinary. This is something I can actually do and see results, not write on a piece of paper and turn it in. Projects, my friend, projects. I feed off of the building stress over the week, and deal with the best I can. I tell you, I'm addicted to this stress. Stress makes endorphins, so its like a little dose of Heroin, haha.

So well, basically an outline of my week as well as I can remember it.

Monday: School, to Allie's house to paint, back at 9.

Tuesday: School, to Allie's house to paint from 5:30-6:45 (my idiotic phone call incident with Kyle calling me 2 feet away and me not noticing that its him, continuously asking who it is), then to KD from 7:00-9:00 (Ryan actually showed up. Good job Ryan. :]), then back home.

Wednesday: Erm... this day's been blank in my mind... All a blur. Well... its cause this week kinda meshed in my brain. Really weird, really. Well, at night, I stayed up with Jessica when she spazzed in her APUSH single-man... woman doing work for whole class mode while I studied precal. So, Wednesday blended into Thursday as the sleepnessness set off another surreal mood in my brain.

Thursday: Wow, much panicking. I went to school, failed Pre-Cal test... (that thing was fscking hard), English graded discussion, physics problem bank overview, psycho Chapt 3 Quiz, then APUSH. We set up the museum stuff, which I mention, was a complete and utter failure. I'm sorry, our project sucks ass. I think we started the entire thing wrong. Not to mention, Mr. Cone is pissed at us like no other cause of the whole moving project issue. Lots of things went wrong, and 6th period ended.

I skipped 7th (come on, its french -.-) and continued to work on the project with Allie throughout. Afterward we were like, "this is not gonna work..." and kinda redesigned the interior. So, everybody came after school and spazzed on the project, considering we had like no crap at all... It was a giant black box. A giant black box. Come on. Give me a break. Insanity, indeed.

Mmm... lets see what happened... Kyle and I went to my house to get 'artifacts' aka random chinese crap laying around. Dead squirrel incident.... Mom chasing him with Tangerines... Finding out we were gonna be kicked out at 6.... Panicking... Alyssa and Ines's random picnic by the pond...

Then I found out I was gonna be in Academic Decathalon next year or something when I met Jonathan while waiting for my parents to pick me up (I called my dad to pick me up and he was like OK. Then, 20 minutes later and many convos later, nothing. So, I called again.

Mom: Erm... where are you? Want me to pick you up? Your dad is here with me playing soccer at the Rec. Center....

WTF. But anyways, after that, she picked me up and promptly sent me to KD again, which I stayed at from 7-9. Well, I slept the first hour, haha. Went back home, and studied for stupid Physics. Jessica pulled another close all-nighter. I got six hours or so, so thats all good.

Friday: First thing that happened. Dad shuffling around the house woke me up and and the first thing that I did was sit straight up and scream "SHIT!"... don't know why. Hahah. Panicked so much. Well, that was about 6:40, so I got up, did some stuff, then called Jessica without reading the messages on aim she sent to me. Sorry, Jessica.

She drove me to starbucks, then school, and work on the project began. Mmm.. Cinnamon Doche Latte, not bad. Too cold though. I NEED SCALDING HOT COFFEE. Anyways, much panicking (and drama mask designing) till 8:55.

Then the Art Test... which was nothing.... Pre-Cal lecture (not like I listen)... English Test... Physics Test... psych lecture(that freaked me out... I swear, they were talking about little things about the brain and it brought all the horror stuff I've ever watched and read back to me. The thing is, I realized that those things would actually be physically possible... according to psych... Like they can take your skull cap off and have your brain sticking out in the air while you're wide awake... and poke your brain and do all this stuff while you're just talking to them... Then the diagram of a guy just staring at us with all his skin and skull stuff peeled back. God... So disturbing)... APUSH looking at the different classes' museum projects which pissed me off anymore cause we had a ginormous black box as ours... then french which involved sleeping on Alina's desk.

Then, we went to the museum project afterwards and took everything down. I gathered all of my crap and put it nearby whilst Alina fondled my stuffed moose. So... that got done relatively quicky and then me and alina kinda just sat there... waiting for the film festival. Jessica showed up, so we put everything in her car and she drove us to Golden Chick and ate chicken(Devil wears prada, arms, fat, other crap like that). Pretty good. The chicken and the rolls. But the ketchup sucks. :[

Then, we went to the film festival (Well... I've got your car!) and watched a couple of films. Some were funny, some werent. Some of them were really corny and cliche. So basically, that was fun.

Then we left and I promptly crashed head to head with Jessica while attempting to shoulder her. Then... I crashed into Alina while we tried to sandwich jessica... Drove back... Sang Mexican music... went home... well.. tried... But my parents werent there so i went to jessica's place and kinda talked for a while.. till like 9:45 (guitar convos.. weird spinal convos.. memory convos... life convos... poster convos...).. then went back home, took a shower, and proceeded to crash on the couch.

So... now I'm here in the morning typing this all out. Its all good though. Funky week. Well, I cant remember what happened the first few days except for the fact that TV was absent the entire Monday to Thursday. THUCVAN! DON'T DIE!

Edit: Mr. Plano show was pretty cool. They were really well prepared, all except for the Demetri Martin ripoff and the white nerd boy rap. Get well soon, Jessica.

Shit

2007-02-07T17:17:00.000-06:00

What the crap is this? The past few days have been fun in a way, but it feels like I'm getting shit from everybody for the crappiest of reasons.

Dudes, I don't need shit from you if you don't realize that already. I have enough going on in my life already with other people giving me shit. So shut the fuck up if you're just bitchy and want to PMS about something. I'm not your fucking scapegoat.

I'm sorry for trying to help out and trying to be relatively nice about it. I swear, I'll never try to associate with you ever again. Happy now?

I swear, if you guys keep on giving me shit, I'm going to fucking snap. I'm not your vent-slave nor a freaking doll. If you want to talk to me, thats fine. I don't need mood swings in my face.

House

2007-02-03T21:33:00.001-06:00

Only one phrase to say:

"I like your house."

Lmfao.

Surreal Week

2007-02-03T14:18:00.000-06:00

Seriously, i feel like i've been living this entire week in a different reality. My head's been so dazed and everything seemed to be blurry. Time seemed to distort itself and minutes passed like hours and hours seemed like seconds. I felt like I was beyond stoned.

Something happened in my part project/competition submission thing that I don't even want to talk about, and I swear 3 ppl are pissed at me. Names unplaced for privacy issues. All of which I realized on Friday. The thing is, I don't know freaking why they're mad at me. Its great.

When I'm supposed to be relaxing, I feel like I'm about to jump off a cliff. The stress is always there and although I hate it, without stress, I feel so empty. Its like, addictive.

Sometimes, my body feels like its shaking for no reason at all. It'll be a perfectly normal day and I'll feel a rush of adrenaline and a tension in my heart, as if something horrible was about to happen. But theres no reason why.

Right now, it feels like I'm becoming more and more emotionally unstable. Like everything thats built up over the past 16 years, every tear and hurt I've refused to shed, dawning upon me. All my faults seem far more exaggerated than usual and theres so many things I want to do right now.

I want to... See people I haven't seen... Lose myself in a forest for a day... Feel the sand beneath my feet... Hear nothing but wind around me... Be surrounded by nothing but darkness... Run barefoot on the burning cement sidewalk... Jump into the creek's cold waters... Stare up at the starry sky... Lay my head against someone's comforting shoulder.

My eyes feel like they're swirling around in their sockets and there's this pounding headache that refuses to go away. I feel like I'm daydreaming... as if I have been for the past 2 weeks. Nothing is real but the here and now.... and the people I can touch and see.

I'm content, yet not enough so. I'm ambitious for something more. But I can't even seem to grasp what.

Intimacy

Busy Week

2007-01-30T01:21:00.000-06:00

Mmm, on Saturday, I bummed out. Which probably wasn't a good idea considering it made my Sunday and Monday so much harder.

On Sunday, I woke up, ate lunch, then went to Walmart to buy all my supplies for the poster and some for the bridge, and stuff for the Psychology project.

Then, I stayed at home and checked out designs and everything, going to Davis at 4 to do the Psych project. It was pretty funny.

Basically, we had regular colored cardstock and cut it into 4 identical squares of each primary color. Then we lined them up and got people from the library and told them that one of each color was different and that this was for an art design project to see how sensitive some people are to color according to age. Well, we had an experimental and a control group.

The experimental group was to be told that there was one different and to pick it out. So they have a 'self-fulfilling prophecy' [yes, thats actually what they call it] and expect one of them to be different. In effect, they trick themselves into seeing a tint or a shade.

The control group was to be told just to pick out the one that was different. Not that there was a different one. Just this phrase would be our independent variable.

Basically what happened was that everyone in the experimental group chose something and said that one of each was diff, most without questioning. Almost everyone in the control group questioned whether there was a difference or not.

Kinda boring, but kinda interesting.

Then, I came home and procratinated a bit more on the physics thing. After a while, a guy named Davey, my parents' college friend [the one that taught my mom english. He did a crappy job -.-] came over for dinner cause he had just flown in from like, NY or something. Apres much talking with him, we talked about the bridge and he suggested the design that everyone was doing. So, yeah. I went upstairs, procrastinated a bit more, then did it. Of course, i messed up 3-4 times and had to completely redo it. So I finished at 3 AM after much procrastination.

Today, I went to school [late cause my mom couldn't find the remote to close the garage door -.-] and regular day. Did shitty on my Pre-Cal Test that we got back today. Introduction to movie project in english. Physics was cool and the light demos were pretty interesting. Shimeng couldn't see any of the optical illusions tho. How pathetic ;p

Apush, we worked on the class project thing. our class's is like... bridge to the present or something about americanization. Mmm... french.... Devoir quiz tomorrow.

Hokay, heres where the fun part begins. I get out, find my mom, and she drives me to.... KD. Then I try to take the diagnostic ACT test that i missed on sunday [sorry ryan] and tried to take that 4 hour test in... 2 hours. Of course, that didn't work out very well and halfway through, i started filling out random answers, haha. Soo...i basically got a 28 on that... pathetic? yes.

Anyways, i was late for the french movie thing... and what a crappy movie it was. Really lame, but.... wait. There are no buts. It was just plain lame... Nvm then -.-;;

Came home at like 9:30 and has been enjoying my free time ever since

Tomorrow is gonna be hell tho.

Art project stuff in the morn. Precal homework to do. Senior Registration thingy during english. God knows whats happening during physics. Psych TEST. Apush... no idea. French QUIZ.

Then KD at night. Yay. Then i have to finish my prose and everything.... I think im losing circulation....

Dying... Dying

Dead.

I'm married to her brother.

2007-01-23T19:16:00.000-06:00

On saturday, I didn't do too much. Just kinda had fun sleeping, then played some games (if qRO means something to you, then play with me sometime), then read a bit. A really relaxed day. Really nice and relaxed. I need a break from life sometimes.

On sunday, I woke up really late and didnt go downstairs till noon. Then mom and dad made me go to Karen Dillards of which I arrived at, did 30 minutes or so of vocabulary (KD's vocab program doesn't help at all. Its uber gay), crashed in to Ryan while wandering around (Jessica didn't pick up her cell phone when i called her), and skipped with him.

We went to Movies 10 (During which time jessica called back and used homework and the bridge project as an excuse to not save us from KD.... non-asian) and looked around. Bought some tickets to Stranger than Fiction and found ourselves with wayyy too much time on our hands. So, by my brilliant idea, we walked to Haggard Library and crashed into Li (o.o is that how you spell his name? Li... Lee...I should know this... i sat across from him during chemistry last year for like twelve weeks.... oh shiz)

Afterwards, Li (I'm going to call him that) borrowed some books and fervently begged to go to KD to see who was there (the place we had just escaped from). Well, we got into his car (scarily crappy car) which was parked funky and he drove us there (that scared me to death). Talking to a couple people, I bumped into Rosy and glared at her for breaking our plans. With a more favorable farewell, Li, Ryan, and me went to movies 10 to just miss the beginning of Stranger than Fiction. It was a pretty good movie. Lots of very very funny moments though. The ending was kinda disappointingly cliche, but not enough to detract from the rest of the movie (I wanna watch a regular movie where the hero dies. And not in a tragedy either. Thats too boring.)

Well, went back to KD then and kinda stayed there, talked to a random girl there.

Then, went home, made pizza, and it was a pretty nice day all in all.

Yesterday, I stayed at home sick-ish... but then my mom dragged me to Academy and she bought an elliptical or whatever its called. However, the fee for getting someone to take it home and set it up... was 80 dollars. Thats ridiculous.

Instead, we took it home and I built it. In return, I got a Wave-Master, approximately the same price as the assembling fee. It took me about 3 hours to fully build it up (who knew there were that many parts to an elliptical -.-)

So yay, a wave-master and an elliptical, i was happy.... and sicker.... I felt so crappy yesterday and started reading Invisible Man at 10:30 PM, the incesty goodness. With an insane headache, a cough, rapid sneezing, and a runny nose, I settled down to a nice book... Only to find myself 2 hours and 6 chapters later with the inability to concentrate. With 3 more chapters to go, I pretty much passed out and woke up at 5:30 and finished what was due for the quiz today. Oh yeah, I watched The Covenant on Monday night after reading Delia's review on it. My personal opinion: You suck Delia. That was the most cliched movie ever. But the six packs were hot. Mostly for girls i guess, considering all they had were pretty boys... but there were a lotta pretty boys, man. Lots of eye candy, haha. For the girls i mean... erm... I'll stop there.

In the morn, I went to the orthodontist and they checked my teeth (omfg, she kept on poking me with the wire. STOP POKING ME!). Apparently I'm getting it off in March, even thought it was supposed to be off by february :[. Ah well, I'll live.

Went to school, bombed the english quiz, bombed the apush quiz, and went to physics to find myself abandoned my thucvan and amy in the project. Sadness. So I grouped up with Kyle and Sri Kanth (most likely not happening tomorrow) and did the wave pool thingy. It was cool. Lots of arguing tho. Psychology project introduced and it sounds kinda fun. We get to experiment on you guys, muhaha. Apush, did a lot of the work with melissa... still need to finish it. What else... French was kinda boring. Lubbers loves to talk.

Came home (it was kinda cold today) and my mom made me go the elliptical to see how hard it was... So 10 minutes later, i'm still on the elliptical and was like... mom... can i stop now? She finally let me get off, so i got to go beat up my wavemaster xD

That was basically it for today. Mucho funs tho.

Sleep..

2007-01-18T00:01:00.000-06:00

And now its midnight and I can't fall asleep... This... This has never happened before! NOO! HAVE I FINALLY REACHED MY LIMIT?! HAVE I SLEPT SO MUCH I CAN SLEEP NO MORE?! HOW CAN THIS BE?!

I guess... my only way to stop this problem... is suicide. Then I can sleep forever! Or I can stare at the wall/ceiling for another hour. Yeah. That sounds good. Hokay.

I still miss Destin.

SNOW DAY!

2007-01-17T21:17:00.000-06:00

The past MLK 3-day weekend was really cool, considering... it was a 3 day weekend... and I didn't have to go to KD on saturday. Much wasting time sleeping... eating... playing games... just doing crap.

Then yesterday, I didn't go to school cause I was feeling kinda crappy. I think I got a cold on Friday when i was forced to walk from the bus stop all the way home through the god damned rain... while wearing only my French Club maroon shirt and underarmor. The underarmor made things worse. It stuck to my skin and was wet and was icky. After like 5 minutes of walking through the freezing rain... I think it affected me. So anyway, yesterday, I didn't go to school and went to sleep thinking I would have to go to school today.

Then... this morning... I was about to get ready for school after messing on the comp for like 10 minutes in the morning (and hoping to get a hot chocolate when i got to school... even though today wasnt that cold), when I decided to check facebook.

So... I was at the 'home' page and then reading through the feed thingy when I saw Scarlett's post.... SNOW DAY! I was like wtf, u kidding me? I thought she was just joking... then I looked outside... OMG! SNOW! *checked plano website*... All classes and activities cancelled. Then I went downstairs and had fun :]

Watched The Devil Wears Prada, was kinda interesting. Ate hot pot for lunch before that. All the snows melted now, but its all good. So basically, 2 days of school left for me in this week, pretty awesome.

I just went downstairs and slept most of the time haha, so I'm all rested now. God, i sleep so much now. Its like I'm scared I'm not gonna be able to sleep later, so might as well sleep now.

Besides the rant...

2007-01-11T17:23:00.000-06:00

Hokay, now that i've calmed down a bit, I'll list down some other highlights of the day.

1. Kicking Jessica.
2. Kicking Jessica.
3. Kicking Jessica.

No, that was not a typo. I do like to kick Jessica. Its just funner. I guess chasing Kyle around was kinda fun too, but he gave up in the end. Thats not fun.

The sarcasm thing worked out kinda well, save the fact I almost slipped 32423 and had to remain silent for a good part of the day.... the random taunts from people who take advantage of me didn't help.

I also had much chocolate. Mmm.

We started that gay mask project in art. Damn u patterned masks [I like the one with the monkey-monk-man on top. I think it looks funny].

Queer psycho-professor came into class and started talking about majors.

Mmm......... chocolate.

Rant again.... Yes. About my mom.

2007-01-11T17:04:00.000-06:00

As if yesterday's 'spat' wasnt enough, my mom pissed me off even more just a few minutes ago. I was saying "hmm... im gonna check my mail right now" and she was like "why" and of course i was like "to see if delia's sent me anything. We usually exchange emails everyday or so." and my mom was like "right now its gonna be a few days, but eventually its gonna be a few months or so and you're just gonna stop talking to each other all together"

I was like "wtf. You think I don't know that? way to be positive mom. You think i don't know that? why can't you encourage your kids once in a while?" And then she was like "i'm just telling the truth".

W...t ... f.... does she think we're stupid or something? I know this probably isnt gonna last, but way to put a damper on it. Way to encourage your kids. Dont real moms say something corny like "try your best"?

When in the world is it right for a mom to disagree with everything positive their kid says? I say that i want to try to run a marathon and she completely goes against me. I say I want to write some kind of thing and shes like "you'll never carry it through anyway". She constantly calls me too lazy to do anything.

God, I'm pissed off. Shes so immature I feel like I have a little sister attempting to be my mom. Not to mention the number of things she does just to piss me off cause shes in a good mood. The woman agitates me for her own amusement. Now i know why I'm so fucking sadistic.

Sarcasm Break

2007-01-10T17:21:00.000-06:00

My goal tomorrow is to not be sarcastic the entire day through. Ines said that she would give me a choco bar if I made it through. I think I'm just gonna stay silent the entire day.

PMS-ing

2007-01-10T07:29:00.000-06:00

Wow, that was the weirdest argument with my mom, ever. She basically took what I gave her for granted and didn't take care of the feather rose I got her so I was a bit upset. And when I talked to her about it she was like, wtf, why are u so upset? Maybe cauuuseee.. I spent a lotta thought into getting you that and I thought you would actually appreciate it? Now its lying in a corner, ruffled, torn, hidden from all view, and gathering dust?

And then, she starts yelling at me about being too sensitive. I'm like... dude... when you give someone something you expect them to take care of it relatively decently. Abusing it and making excuses is just stupid....

Then she told me that I was PMSing while yelling all the while. I was like, I'm not PMSing mom... Note that she was yelling at me and I was trying to be calm. And she tells me I'm PMSing.

Soo... She keeps on insisting that I'm PMSing. Then after a while of denying it I got really really pissed off and was like "MOM! CONTRARY TO YOUR BELIEF, I CAN TELL WHEN BLOOD STOPS COMING OUT OF MY VAGINA!"

And Dad looked very awkward for a while. But that shut her up at least. I don't need her bullshit after I come home from a day at school.

Wow, that pissed me off. Not only is she insensitive, she assumes that I can't even tell when I'm PMSing. Thats just stupid. I actually had a really good day today. Coming home ruined it. Maybe I should turn anti-vacation/anti-family like emo-kid. Nah, the lack of pants still bugs me.

Edit: Errr.. By today I meant yesterday =.=

Dull

2007-01-08T23:27:00.000-06:00

When I think about things I want to write about my day, I suddenly realize how boring my everyday life is... Wow...

Recipe for the Day

2007-01-05T22:26:00.000-06:00

Mmm... Chili Cheese Tatertots and talks about oral sex and preventing abstinence. Then the dash of a cinnamon dolce latte and mix in some school work with 4 sticks of butter.

Wrap it with strips of bacon and some deep emails exchanged with Delia.

Fry thoroughly with too much French homework and top it all of with three tubs of lard in the form of a brand new cell phone.

Surround the edges of the plate with pound cake and bake in the oven at 350 for 20 minutes along with the Pillsbury Dough Boy. Let the mixture cool for the amount of time it takes for your mother to stop crying.

What do we get?

No, thats not a semi-intelligent representation for Laura's Day, you idiot. Its kitty litter.

After The Snow

2007-01-04T16:59:00.000-06:00

First Day back into school.

The Art teacher introduced the color wheel which was stupid.

Precal random identity stuff.

English....... pink flamingo essay

Lunch- Christina and I went outside and Christina started skipping around happily in her yellow jacket like a moron. It scared me.

Physics- Bridge project introduced. It scares me more than christina does. (she hit me in the eye before class started)

Psych AP- Wow, brooks likes to talk. Maybe even more than Lubbers.

APUSH- Melissa's in my class now! *happy*

French AP- Alina didnt show up... how weird. Kyle and I had odd convos about what he wanted to be when he grew up. He says he likes to deceive people. I told him to be a politician.

Aik's Stupidity

2007-01-02T21:07:00.000-06:00

"Oh.. when you said 12 o'clock.. I thought you meant midnight."

"Why the fuck would we pick you up at midnight?"

"Cause... you guys are weird like that?"

Wow.... he's stupid...

New Years

2007-01-01T13:20:00.000-06:00

I already forgot it was New Years and 3 posts in one day, haha. Too much stuff going on I guess. Anyways, my resolutions are to:

1. Run 4-5 miles a day 4-5 times a week.
2. Get better grades in pre-cal.
3. Get my braces off by the end of March.
4. Get my driver's license.
5. Get at least a 2250 on my SATs
6. Finish my prose-work and publish it.
7. Get scholarships.
8. Go outside more often.
9. Allow myself to be more spontaneous.
10. Become really good at judo.
11. Get more friends I can consider close to me.
12. Be more confident about myself.
13. And be able to wow my winter-break friends the next time I see them.

Hope you guys have resolutions and accomplish them this year.

Destin Winter 2006 Piccies

2007-01-01T10:40:00.000-06:00

All the stuff we took is here in this album

Destin, Florida. Winter 2006 Album

But heres a shortened summary of everything in case ur too lazy to click.

Photos:

What the asians look like on the beach, haha

Dad and Mom

My lil bro.

Me and Delia

Me looking at what delia's taking a piccy of.

Sherry, Delia, and me

Huge group piccy my dad took

The Young Adult group picture. The 12 year old in the middle wearing the orange shirt has a 6 pack :]

In this piccy, from the bottom left to bottom right is: Vince, John, Mike, Delia
The top row from left to right is: Nancy, Linda, Ellen, Sherry, Diana, and Me

Raymonds just kinda.. in the middle. Everybody loves raymond.

We'll I'll have more piccies up later when i get the mass distribution of em.

The Day After

2007-01-01T09:44:00.000-06:00

Hokay, im ready to talk about what happened during my week at destin. The first day was basically spent lounging around waiting for pplz to come and talking with "the white guy" who complained about flights. Ellen and Nancy were delayed cause of an airline problem and came the night of the 2nd day. Mike came earlier that day and everybody rushed up to the penthouse to greet him, haha.

The first few days were spent watching movies and playing mafia, without any access to the beach. The party was on christmas night cause not enough ppl were there on the eve. Oh yeah the day before that popped up Vicky, aka the 14 yr old pratically anorexic emo-kid (she was like as tall as me and weighed... 70 lbs).

Her parents and her parent's friends told me to befriend her cause they were worried about her. Apparently the girl was going through a rebellious phase. Stupidest thing I've ever heard. Didn't like her from the start but I had already promised. So I tried to talk to her the first night, but she was stuck on her phone txting people and other crap the entire first night, refusing to play with us when we were going down to my condo.

The next day, I basically didn't see her for the entire day. Then raymond and vince came up to me and told me that they had tried to get her to come out, but that had worked in vain. Since they knew where she lived, i just followed them to 704 A and knocked on the door. Her grandparents opened the door for us and called the kid out.

I was like "I'm kidnapping you. You have no say in the matter. Come with us." and she gave excuses like "I'm tired, i don't sleep at night, you don't get it." But I kinda just glared at her the entire time and she eventually gave in and came with us.

It was kinda fun the first day cause she kept on claiming she wasn't "emo" despite the way she dressed and the excessive amount of hair in front of her eyes. So anyways, we dragged the anorexic emo-kid into our 'play' (it was decided that me and nancy would pair up to do something at the christmas party), and eventually even got raymond and vince to do it.

The rest of the details, I'm a bit too embarrassed to talk about so i'll leave that out. But we had a good time praticing our play and it was fun.

The next day, we went down to emo-kid's condo and knocked on it, but she didn't answer. We later discovered that she merely ignored us (thus pissing me off majorly). We had games that night and it was pretty fun cause DELIA showed up! :]

Well, she had the worst timing ever considering she popped in during the parent kid conversation about college that was required to be attended. Yeah.. worst timing ever. I then tried to get nancy to sit down cause she had a fever earlier and she was the only one standing. But she was stubborn so both of us just stood there.

It was soo good seeing Delia again after an entire goddamned year. I really missed her.

Anyways, i sucked at the games that night cause none of them wanted to participate. And then, we did the entire christmas song charades game in which you have to figure out the name of the song then sing 4 lines from it. It was a tie :[

That was tuesday, the day after christmas. The next few days, me and delia hung around each other a lot, doing many things together.

A while after, that game night, I tried to get emo-kid to come play with us again considering she didnt show up the entire morning. We went down to her condo and kept on knocking on the door (for more than 5 minutes), then me and delia went up, got the condo keys from her mom, then went down again and invited ourselves in.

Raymond unlocked her bedroom door so me and delia just kinda sat in there eating and watching tv (the history of playboy was on... wtf) while raymond and vince sat outside talking. She finished her shower and brushing her teeth (it was 2 PM...) and came out.

We tried to get her to go play with us on the beach, but she refused. For some reason emo-kid was pmsing that day or something and she turned really hostile. Delia got bored and left for 2 hours, coming back later.

Emo-kid and I were kinda stuck in a stubborn dead lock. I stole her cellphone and ipod cause her inability to pay attention to someone talking pissed me off majorly. I called Jessica to see how to solve the problem, but none of her advice helped even remotely. Shine a flashlight in her eyes! Make a trail of cheetos! -.- thanks jessica.

Anyways, she kinda played in her sudoku book and we were just sitting there, bored. Delia came back and started glaring with her eyes at emo-kid without saying everything. I thought it was funning so i was grinning at her and we kept on glancing back and forth, cause i guess we were kinda pissed off. Well, actually, I was smiling like no other cause thats what i do when im really pissed and feeling sadistically sarcastic. Delia was just glaring.

So I don't know exactly what sparked her but we exchanged some really hostile remarks. She kept on asking me stuffs like "Why are you doing this? Do you think you're provoking me or something? Have you no life?" and i'd just be like "its fun. I'm sadistic." and then shes like "why the fuck are you here?" and i'd be like "cause i've got the keys". Haha, that was amusing in a really sadistic way.

So anyways, vince brought donuts and icecream down earlier so we just ate. But for some reason, emo-kid stood up and walked to her room. I wasn't even aware of what exactly happened, but she slammed her door. Delia said something like "That shows you how mature you are." or some stuff like that. Lmao. Its just funny how they're the same age when one acts like they're my 4 year old bro and the other acts my age, haha.

So then emo-kid commenced to attempt to piss us off by turning up the tv really loud and delia retaliated by turning up the tv in this room really loud too. All the meanwhile i was cracking up like no other. Fun, very fun. Very fun indeed.

Well, some time elapsed and we called mike down and started up a convo with him, joking around and watching tv while emo-kid locked herself in her room. By this time, we had spent like 4 hours down here just trying to get her to go outside. We kinda got bored and left when her grandparents came back and went up to look for food.

So basically after that, we found out that emo-kid was genuinely pissed off like no other, a fact I took great pleasure in. Her mom kept coming over to apologize to me, so i had to apologize to her mom. Emo-kid didnt come out of the condo for... the next 4 days cause she was scared of crashing into me, hahaha.

Well basically, that was the dramatic event of this week. Later the whole bunch watched mr. and mrs. smith (that we didnt finish), kung fu hustle (that we slept through. Well actually, i tried to sleep but mike kept on laughing. It bugged me. Then later i almost fell asleep on diana and then delia rested on me when i was trying to sleep on the couch. I think im a bad pillow.), and then we watched that 45 minute clip of russell peters (Yo momma so fat..... daaat, when she jump fo joyyy... she got stuck!) Lmao, fun fun despite the fact we got kicked out of Mike's room later.

Okay, many walks on the beaches later(on friday some dared to venture out into the icy waves... oh yeah, and my dad chased raymond into the waves to find out if raymond had a six pack.... AND HE DOES! The only guy on the beach with a six pack is a 12 year old! HAHAH!), it was friday night and we went to the outlet mall. Well, we had watched the cooking channels before that so we were really thirsty, thus our reason for getting smoothies.

Then we kinda bugged raymond and vince who were following us (john and mike had gone off in the group, diana and sherry were in a group, and raymond, vince, delia, and i were in a group). I kinda followed delia into a couple of stores and looked around.

In pacsun, we had found out that mike and john had separated cause for one, mike couldnt find john, and for 2, he didnt want to cause john took as much time as a girl to choose out clothes (and takes 2 hours to shower...). So mike took raymond and vince with him, and they went off. Me and delia tried out some stuff, but didnt really buy anything and walked off.

We returned to the penthouse with john's mom and vicky's mom (emo-kid still hadnt come out of her room). After we ate, there were games again and ellen and nancy made drinks (some alcoholic, some not). We played some riddle games, and it was fun at times (what is significant about the number 854917632? What travels around the world but only stays in a corner?)

The next morning, Linda and Diana had left pretty early and John left a little after them. Ellen and Nancy were to stay till 2 PM considering they lived only like.. 5 or 6 hours away.

Before we had gone to the mall, delias dad had agreed to stay till 5 PM the next day before leaving for home, so we were happy we'd have an entire day to do stuff. However, on saturday morning, he said that they were leaving immediately due to 'bad weather' -.-

Delia was really really pissed off and my mom and dad tried to convince him to change his mind, but they left before noon and that sucked. There she goes for another year.

I stayed a while after, played some short games of mafia (they kept on getting the mafia right...), ate lunch, then left afterwards. And that was basically the end of my short week at destin. I got back yesterday around 2. I bought many a stuff at Beach Access that week and got some souvenirs, so thats all good. Right now, a whole nother year is too hard to bear, but i guess i'll deal with it. Back to schoolwork.

I have photos uploaded and i'll post em later.

Basketball Players

2006-12-31T15:19:00.000-06:00

Just got home a while ago after driving all this morning and yesterday's afternoon. And then i got home and typed out this letter to the coach cause the stupid basketball players were bothering us.

"To whom it may concern,

My name is Laura Lin and my family and I coincidentally stayed at the same condo, Majestic Sun, as your basketball team in Destin, Florida. My family and the many families we know who stayed there in the past week have a list of complaints and I hope you discipline your players better. The list of complaints includes the following:

1. They were excessively loud at night, running up and down the hallways and laughing.

2. They shouted often without regard for others residing there.

3. They would often slam doors at night when we slept.

4. They bothered many of the girls on the vacation with us, often catcalling and yelling upon seeing them.

5. They were loud and obnoxious and made many of the girls feel uncomfortable.

We felt insecure and bothered during our vacation and we do not believe this is a proper way for students, especially athletes, to represent their school. Their excessive disregard for others may have been done purely on spontaneity, but that is no excuse for bothering us.

I regret I've had to make this complaint, and I thank you for your time and cooperation.

Sincerely,
Laura Lin"

I'll write about what happened later, but im too tired to type out everything. Really sad it ended so quickly.

Weirdest last day of exams ever.... but cool

2006-12-22T00:35:00.000-06:00

WOW! I just spent the past 30 minutes trying to remember my account name... ANYWAY, this day was weird.

Got up in the morning, mom drove to school and told me a story:

Apparently, a grandfather was having a huge bday party and he had a 3 year old grandson (this was in china). Since there was so many people, the little boy managed to run out unnoticed and got hit by a Benz and crushed. If that wasn't bad enough, the people in the Benz got out (there were 3 of them) and looked at the kid, got BACK IN THE CAR, put it in reverse, AND RAN OVER HIM AGAIN. So the boy was like crushed into pieces and there was blood everywhere.

Okay, knowing this, i went to school, took the APUSH exam, french exam, then was walking back home thinking about it. If my 4 year old bro had had that happen to him, i would've hunted those bastards down, all 3 of them, and slowly tortured them until they wished they remembered how to even not feel pain. Then I would castrate them and stuff their dicks down their throats and let vultures peck at their eyes. AND THEN, I would burn them slowly to death and laugh maniacally as their bodies blackened with flame.

ANYWAYS, with this thought in mind, i was walking home from the bus stop when i saw a car that had just passed me, stop. The man got out and helped this fat woman wearing all pink who had fallen over. He helped her pick up her bike and put everything up. Then, the car behind them stopped too and a mexican-ish american woman got out and she was helping. I was almost home by then, so i went home, got my mom, and we both went to see what was going on. We asked if we could help, but the woman who had fallen over said that she was fine and she had to finish her 'errands'. The other people were telling her just to sit and chill till help came, but she didnt listen.

I had no idea what was going on at that time. The fat lady just got on her bike and rode away and i was like, wtf. So anyways, afterwards, i suddenly looked down and saw this huge splotch of blood on the cement and the people were like "She hit her head on the cement". That was really weird, she could've gotten a concussion. Then the fire truck came and they asked us what was going on and we told them that the fat lady went off in that direction.

So they turned on the sirens and went to go chase her down, haha. So afterwards, all 4 of us were staring in that general direction going "wtf just happened", so i asked that first guy what happened and he said that she told him that she was running away from someone that was chasing her. That was kinda creepy. Anyways, all that said and done, i went home and ate lunch.

AND THEN! after i ate and got online, jessica IMed me with a dog problem. Apparently she had promised to babysit harvey's dog a week ago and her parents were fine with it. However when she got home to remind them again (today harvey was supposed to drop off the dog), they got pissy and were like "NO!".

So jessica and I spent a couple of hours looking for someone to take care of the dog in vain before she switched her attentions to working with her choco fountain. Then she picked me and alina up and we went to thuc-van's party. It was pretty cool messing with everyone and tackling vinita, and helping tv with her stuff. The food was decent (the gamers pissed me off) and it was fun in general except when jeff peng hit his head on the table... that was just wow-weird. AND THEN PRESENTS!

Shimeng got me a giganto-lolli pop, which me and my bro later fought over.

Vinita got me a KICK-ASS mp3/ipod portable stereo system. U ROCK VINITA! It took me forever to figure out how to fold it though. I feel stupid

Thuc-van got me this freakishly awesome santa hat that's black where it should be white and says "Who's your santa?" and a............... CACTUS! hahahaha! (I had fun poking the thorns and saying "ow!" every ten seconds

Darlene got me a picture of all of us 'smoking' our choco cigarettes. Ahh, good times good times. Although that did cause trouble when i got home cause my 4 year old bro was like "SISTER'S SMOKING!"

Malcolm sent me a cute little card ^^ and candy

Jessica still hasn't given me a present yet so i shall glare at her till she does. (she owes me for the pooping santa)

So, that was really cool, but me and jessica left a bit early. Ah well, merry christmas to you all and i hope noone dies over winter break.

So overall, exams have been stupid and i think i failed everything (not gonna check till after i get back), so yeah. Anyways, im gonna go to florida tomorrow and its time for me to finish packing, then sleep. Merry christmas to everyone who isnt reading this blog, haha.

Sleepless Fridays

2006-12-15T20:28:00.000-06:00

So yesterday, i had to finish the drawing of that stupid tree and the pshs building. Which took me... all night. Well, actually, i spent some of that time snacking of many unhealthy goods (Apple Crisps are actually really really good! the cinnamon kind) and NO SLEEP =.=. At least Sara kept me company from Guam ^^ her and her little kitty, Cia, haha. And the entire pillow incident too.

I pratically passed out at 6, but managed to get myself ready for school (and that makeup french quiz I bombed) and turned in the completed drawing on time :]

Bleh interesting day. I got really hyper offa my fatigued state, randomly talking to ppl, english whiz quiz mania, talked to my neighbor for the first time in like, a year... yeah, lots of stuffs. Anyways, I seriously need to study for my freaking upcoming exams. I'm gonna fail everything if i dont.

HOWEVER, im such a procrastinator, so lets leave that for next week ^^. Drawing random pictures with Alina in French was fun and its almost time for winter break! just exam week left, yippee. However, im gonna have to say goodbye to seeing vinita daily and goodbye to maggie from health. Ah well, next semester is psychology AP.

Good luck to you all on exams even if noone even knows about this blog yet, haha. I just wanna see if im gonna keep it going before i actually tell people about this.

Rant

2006-12-13T00:26:00.000-06:00

Well.. I didn't feel like rewriting all this... so im just gonna post my rant convo about today's events. Anyways, ran another 4 miles today and the blisters are getting more annoying. Finished all of my shopping except for dad's gift.

Chen Ee Ting (6:11:25 PM): we had brown bag today do i didn't go to lunch

XdWlf (6:11:49 PM): ah

XdWlf (6:11:56 PM): yeah, so i had an ortho appointment

Chen Ee Ting (6:11:47 PM): okay

XdWlf (6:12:04 PM): so afterwards, i was like

XdWlf (6:12:09 PM): screw thing, im not going back to school

Chen Ee Ting (6:12:02 PM): mmhm

XdWlf (6:12:15 PM): cause lunch was already over and stuff

XdWlf (6:12:36 PM): okay, and then i went to finish up my christmas shopping

XdWlf (6:12:38 PM): yay fun right?

Chen Ee Ting (6:12:30 PM): yeahhh

Chen Ee Ting (6:12:34 PM): did you get my pooping santa?

XdWlf (6:12:49 PM): eff you

XdWlf (6:12:51 PM): out of the story

XdWlf (6:12:51 PM): haha

XdWlf (6:12:54 PM): anyways

XdWlf (6:13:07 PM): so my bros been sick the past few days

XdWlf (6:13:16 PM): and my moms like, "when do i have to pick you up again?"

XdWlf (6:13:21 PM): i was like, just leave me there

XdWlf (6:13:33 PM): and i might take a while

Chen Ee Ting (6:13:26 PM): okay

XdWlf (6:13:59 PM): but she was like "nah, i'll go with u with ur little brother. He needs to play"

XdWlf (6:14:06 PM): and so, that was that

XdWlf (6:14:13 PM): okay, we went into the mall

XdWlf (6:14:18 PM): kinda went our separate ways

XdWlf (6:14:23 PM): i browsed everywhere

XdWlf (6:14:31 PM): half an hour later

XdWlf (6:14:35 PM): i get to spencers

XdWlf (6:14:44 PM): and i see my mom inside with my bro at the perverted section

XdWlf (6:14:48 PM): and im just like

XdWlf (6:14:48 PM): WTF

XdWlf (6:15:15 PM): so i walk inside, tell her to get him out of there and she stupidly asks me "Why"

XdWlf (6:15:40 PM): soo thenn

XdWlf (6:15:51 PM): she finally gives up and then walks outside

XdWlf (6:15:57 PM): and then tells me to hurry up, cause we're going home

XdWlf (6:16:01 PM): im like.... WTF

XdWlf (6:16:18 PM): and her excuse is "Your brother's sick, he wants to go home"

XdWlf (6:16:24 PM): and starts yelling at me for making them go the mall

XdWlf (6:16:27 PM): and being inconsiderate

Chen Ee Ting (6:16:21 PM): -.-

XdWlf (6:16:34 PM): and then making them stay a long time

XdWlf (6:16:46 PM): AND THEN

XdWlf (6:17:00 PM): i was like, screw this so i hurried my way

XdWlf (6:17:16 PM): finished the rest of my shopping in like 5 minutes

Chen Ee Ting (6:17:06 PM): wow

Chen Ee Ting (6:17:08 PM): spencers?

XdWlf (6:17:25 PM): yep

XdWlf (6:17:38 PM): anyways, i finished the rest of my shopping all while my moms like glaring at me

XdWlf (6:17:45 PM): going like "WHY ARE YOU TAKING SO LONG?!"

XdWlf (6:18:23 PM): then shes like "oh! your brother needs to go pee. Hold this random sac of baby bottles while i take him to the restroom"

XdWlf (6:18:40 PM): so... i stand there holding the stuff for like 5 minutes while receiving really weird looks

XdWlf (6:18:55 PM): and then when im finally paying for the stuff

XdWlf (6:19:00 PM): and yes, i got ur gift at spencers

XdWlf (6:19:07 PM): she brings him in again

XdWlf (6:19:12 PM): and lets him play with the perverted stuff

XdWlf (6:19:21 PM): so i started yelling at her in chinese

XdWlf (6:19:26 PM): to take him out of there

Chen Ee Ting (6:19:38 PM): wow

XdWlf (6:19:55 PM): and then shes all indignant like "WELL! IM SO STRESSED OUT ABOUT LIFE AND THIS IS THE HARDEST THING IN THE WORLD"

XdWlf (6:19:57 PM): and does NOTHING

Chen Ee Ting (6:19:46 PM): your mom lets your brother into spencers?

Chen Ee Ting (6:19:52 PM): -.-

XdWlf (6:20:04 PM): she doesnt even know its bad

Chen Ee Ting (6:19:53 PM): uh

XdWlf (6:20:06 PM): >>

XdWlf (6:20:09 PM): and THEN

Chen Ee Ting (6:20:00 PM): he's going to turn out like jon wan

XdWlf (6:20:15 PM): haha

Chen Ee Ting (6:20:04 PM): *john liu

XdWlf (6:20:17 PM): theres more

XdWlf (6:20:21 PM): oh shiz, that kid

XdWlf (6:20:22 PM): anyways

XdWlf (6:20:33 PM): so shes pissed at me for being pissed at her

XdWlf (6:20:40 PM): cause she thinks she does everything right

XdWlf (6:20:58 PM): so anyways, my mom hadnt bought my dad a present so she just told me to buy one for him

XdWlf (6:21:12 PM): and i was like, i dont see anything for him when we were leaving

XdWlf (6:21:33 PM): and she was like "Well, ur dad is easy. Buy anything for him. Its not like it matters"

Chen Ee Ting (6:21:26 PM): k hurry it up i got to go soon

XdWlf (6:21:41 PM): ahh

Chen Ee Ting (6:21:34 PM): what a nice wife

XdWlf (6:21:49 PM): yeah, i know

XdWlf (6:21:56 PM): so i got pissed off and was like "be more considerate"

Chen Ee Ting (6:21:51 PM): mmhm

XdWlf (6:22:17 PM): and then she says that i was being inconsiderate cause my brother was sick and apparently i made them go sit at the mall

XdWlf (6:22:20 PM): and was taking my merry time

Chen Ee Ting (6:22:13 PM): righhhhht

XdWlf (6:22:27 PM): yep

Chen Ee Ting (6:22:21 PM): well, we always knew your mom was sorta ....

XdWlf (6:22:32 PM): AND THEN

XdWlf (6:22:36 PM): STILL MORE

Chen Ee Ting (6:22:32 PM): hurrry up then

XdWlf (6:22:47 PM): walking out of the mall to the car

XdWlf (6:22:56 PM): my brother apparently wanted something to eat

XdWlf (6:23:01 PM): and then my mom screams at him

XdWlf (6:23:08 PM): for not wanting to eat earlier when she asked

XdWlf (6:23:22 PM): and then shoves him in the car seat and hes pissed off cause hes frustrated

Chen Ee Ting (6:23:16 PM): k i g2g

XdWlf (6:23:31 PM): ahh

XdWlf (6:23:32 PM): haha

Chen Ee Ting (6:23:25 PM): just keep talking

XdWlf (6:23:39 PM): aye aye

Chen Ee Ting (6:23:32 PM): i'll reaf it later

XdWlf (6:23:47 PM): reaf it?

Auto Response from Chen Ee Ting (6:23:36 PM): homeworking. call cell!

XdWlf (6:23:48 PM): will you?

XdWlf (6:23:49 PM): kk

XdWlf (6:24:05 PM): so hes refusing to sit in the baby chair

XdWlf (6:24:23 PM): and then she was like "FINE! DONT GO HOME!" and just stands there glaring at him

XdWlf (6:24:28 PM): and by this time, hes freaked out

XdWlf (6:24:48 PM): and starts saying "no" all over the place

XdWlf (6:25:02 PM): and trying to get my mom to react

XdWlf (6:25:39 PM): so after like, 3 minutes, im sitting there watching them do this, my mom starts yelling at my brother "WHAT DO YOU MEAN BY NO?!" and threatening him all over the place

XdWlf (6:25:51 PM): so i was like, oh shit, cause people were starting to really STARE.

XdWlf (6:26:01 PM): so i was like "mom." really quietly

XdWlf (6:26:12 PM): and then... she turns all her pmsing anger on me

XdWlf (6:26:15 PM): "WHAT?!!!"

XdWlf (6:26:38 PM): so i was like "calm down, hes 4, hes sick, and ur not helping"

XdWlf (6:26:56 PM): and she sends me the nastiest glare

XdWlf (6:27:12 PM): so i put my baby bro in his car seat and buckle him up

XdWlf (6:27:23 PM): and was like "its not that difficult, just be patient"

XdWlf (6:27:57 PM): and shes mocks me "its not that difficult" and shuts the door, get in the other door and drives angrily

XdWlf (6:28:18 PM): and this is the reason i hate going anywhere with my mom

XdWlf (6:28:50 PM): shes just so god damned immature and refuses to listen to anything other than herself

XdWlf (6:29:01 PM): when shes pissed off, she takes it out on everyone and everything around her

XdWlf (6:29:17 PM): she has less common sense than a cheeseburger

XdWlf (6:29:41 PM): and if you talk to her, she either laughs like you're an idiot or gets pissed off and starts screaming random nonsense

XdWlf (6:29:59 PM): on top of all this, shes so surprised that i dont wanna spend time with her

XdWlf (6:30:15 PM): and then gets all pissy anyway when i dont go talk to her

XdWlf (6:30:30 PM): even though half the time, she manages to freaking piss me off like no other

XdWlf (6:30:40 PM): 5 minutes into the convo

XdWlf (6:31:03 PM): so yeah, theres my rant about what happened within an hour

XdWlf (6:31:21 PM): mmhmm

Chen Ee Ting (9:48:28 PM): awesomeeee

Chen Ee Ting (9:48:31 PM): wow

Chen Ee Ting (9:48:33 PM): you're mom is ...

Chen Ee Ting (9:48:34 PM): senile

XdWlf (9:48:49 PM): lmfao

XdWlf (9:48:56 PM): thats the first time i heard that

XdWlf (9:48:59 PM): but yet, so true

And after this, my mom pissed me off once again. Right before they went to sleep, she started mocking me about a recent argument, pretending that she was right.

Apparently she had forgotten the fact that I was the one who forgave her for the entire thing, and that she was speechless the entire time. Not to mention, she was a complete fucking jackass during the entire hour we were arguing. Pardon, fucking bitch. There we go.

Anyways, so I said "You know what, Mom?" and she managed to get the hint to stfu. Only reason i didnt bitch at her was cause my dad was there.

Christmas Shopping

2006-12-11T19:03:00.000-06:00

So, Jessica got her car back yesterday so she picked me up and we went to Dunkin' Donuts/Baskin Robbins and attempted to finish a dozen donuts =.=... The moron got a Wild Mango Slush and froze her brain to death.

So, i finished my half and she had 1 1/2 left, so we brought it to peoples studying in the library. Oh yea, we were supposed to be studying for the stupid english 6 weeks test.

Afterwards, we were going to willowbend mall offa the highway (purely by following her GPS's instructions) and we got to a tollway thingy and had to pay 4o cents.

So... there we are... sitting there and paying up... and the stupid thing freezes... Okay... drop a few more cents in.. still frozen =.=;;. Okay, so we backed up and went to the one next to us considering pratically noone was there. And then... this one seemed fine. went down to like 10 cents... then froze. it was such a wtf moment. Sooo after dropping a few more cents in there, we were screaming at the machine. So..... we backed up onto the highway and kept on driving down the highway... and at the next tollway thing, we tried yet again.

Notice, third one already. So, we stuck money in. It was FINE up to 10 cents... tehn it froze...... You could imagine how outraged we were as we watched the tollway thingy beside us as people tossed money in and just happily zoomed away. While screaming at the machine, this idiot pulls up behind us.... and just sits there... Despite the fact we were like... dude... we cant do anything... So... after a while... another car pulls behind the idiot, a car containing a very bitchy lady. All the meanwhile, we're yelling at the stupid machine and staring at the stupid red light that mocks us... MOCKS US!

After like... 5 minutes of sitting there, the lady has a sudden brilliant idea. HEY! WHY DONT I GO IN THE OTHER ONE THATS BEEN EMPTY FOR THE PAST 5 MINUTES?! Wow, amazing genius brain. So, she drives through the other one, drops the money, and suddenly screams "FUCKING IDIOTS!" while driving away. We were just like... DUDE! SAY THAT TO OUR FACES! YEAH! WE LOVE SITTING HERE LIKE MORONS!........ that was gay. So the dude behind us suddenly went WOW! MAYBE I CAN DO THAT TOO! and pulls into the next lane and goes through.

So... we're like "YAY! we can pull out!"... then we realized the fact that a ridiculous number of cars were pulling into the tollway area -.-;;. So... at the end... after much hesitation.. we ran it, haha.

So anyways, afterwards, we got to willowbend all pissed off... (And i really needed to go pee) and then shopped around for presents. After much funness at the mall, we then drove to escape, found an amazingly huge number of asians there, moved on to the korean restaurant place, ate dinner (well... jessica had meat whereas i ate her free appetizers. Yay me) while studying, and then when we were done, we went back to escape just to study. Then, we stayed there for like a couple of hours just studying for english (ie. great gatsby, yellow wallpaper, open boat, emily dickinson, that weird other perverted train dude, anne whatsherface, and the differences between naturalism, romaticism, and realism).

Soo... studied kinda with many tangents in our convo. Then, we went to walmart cause jess wanted lotion... and then i got dropped off at my house. So it was all good.

Such a freaking weird weekend, but it was really fun, even if im writing it right now on monday night, ahaha. Oh yeah. I felt really guilty about those 6 donuts (which contained on average... 300 calories each) so i ran 5 miles. But i looked at my shoes today and they were like, worn out on the ball and sole of the foot whereas the toes and the base of the shoe were like, perfectly fine. It looks so weird.

Well, i bombed the English test today despite the studying, found out i failed the pre-cal test due to stupid mistakes (if u guys wanted to know, 3+3 doesnt equal 4... and 5+1 doesnt equal 4... and 1+1 doesnt equal 1... nor does 0.09/12 equal 0.09).

So.. yeah, im probably gonna fail precal this six weeks -.-;;. But i did pretty well on the physics lab so im happy about that. AND! I don't have to go to school tomorrow or anything cause i have an ortho appointment at 10:20. Sorry Ines, Martin, and Sam, but u'll have to present Jordan Baker on ur own.

Much interesting things today. Made fun of the APUSH teacher during the lecture, talked with alina and kyle during french... talked with shimeng on the bus... watched spirited away with my family when i got home. Ima try to run another 4 miles later, but thats basically my day for now.

Interesting Saturday

2006-12-10T09:27:00.001-06:00

First post, rah. Well, yesterday was.... interesting.

I first volunteered at the Wrestling tournament (lots of guys in tights on top of each other >>)(oh yeah, kyle lost his first match...), and then i came home and bitched at Jason and finally made him hate me....

then i was about to go christmas shopping with jessica till her parents exploded at her... and im pretty worried about her now. She seriously wasn't acting like herself. Reminds of 7th grade all over again.

Without being so emo and ignoring everything thing else... THERES AN ENGLISH TEST TOMORROW! *angry*

And what else... Christmas, oh yeah. Hmm. I don't know what a lotta people want. Pooping Santa for jessica as she dictated a thousand times over, but what else for who. Oh well, I guess i'll just see when i get into the store. Hopefully, i continue this entry blog my xanga and my livejournal. I'll try my best anyway.